Let me tell you something about myself: I am Jewish by birth, through my mother. At age 44, God Himself put me in a little Baptist church to find "Jesus" who changed my whole life. NO amount of badgering or cajoling or screaming and hollering by "counter-missionaries" can change that FACT. Until then, my life was simply never "right."
But, unlike most who are now "counter-missionaries," I didn't just hang out in church to warm the pews on Sunday - I began to study the Bible from start to finish. I devoured it, along with every Bible study I could find. Before then, I had never even read the Bible in my whole life.
Within three months I began to realize "something was missing in church," but I had no clue what it was.... and with every question, my pastor sent me to the writings of Paul. "PAUL said...."
I - unlike most - kept wondering why PAUL was more important than Jesus and His Father, and why Paul would be allowed to contradict God!
But one day I realized Paul DIDN'T contradict God! He wasn't to blame for the fact that people didn't "get" what he said, because it's hard to translate and explain complex Hebrew terms to the Gentile population. The PASTORS were forever busy misunderstanding Paul, who ALSO said, "Does that mean we NEGATE Torah? May it never be! On the contrary, we ESTABLISH Torah!" (Romans 3:31)
It was at that point, I KNEW churches were wrong in their teachings about Paul AND "Jesus" who, to me, didn't resemble a TRUE JEW, and was always depicted as a blond, blue-eyed adonis hanging dead on the cross. Unlike most, I wondered what gave the HUMAN MESSIAH (despite his divine nature) the right to change everything His Father commanded! But guess what - Scripture doesn't say he did! He came to proclaim the Kingdom and do everything His Father commanded!
Luke 4: 43 "But he (Yeshua/Jesus) said, "I must preach the good news of the Kingdom of God to the other towns also, because that is why I was sent."
Luke 8: 1. And it happened after these things that Y'shua was going around in the cities and in the villages and was preaching and declaring the Kingdom of Elohim.
Acts 28: 23 "From morning till evening the Apostle Paul explained and declared the Kingdom of God and tried to convince people about Yeshua from the Law of Moses and from the Prophets."
Acts 24: 14. But this indeed I (Paul) acknowledge, that in that same doctrine of which they speak, I do serve the Elohim of my fathers, believing all the things written in Torah and in the prophets.
And so I begged God to show me what I was "missing" in church - and He caused me to sell all my possessions, including my house, and moved me to another state where I ultimately ended up in a Messianic Torah study - a place where ALL my endless questions were answered. That was exactly 3 1/2 years from the time I "got saved" in that little Baptist church.
Since then, I have been in the Bible every day of my life - I am even a Messianic yeshiva graduate, and not some blind dummy off the streets, as you seem to assume. I have NEVER wavered about God, His Messiah or my faith.
And after 22 years, HE has NEVER told me to vacillate or join the hordes of Christians who were mired in the last THIRD of the Bible for decades, who suddenly decided to jump to the other side of the pendulum and accept the first TWO-THIRDS while rejecting that last Third. People like that are not seeking God - they're simply "religion-hopping" - cherry-picking Scripture to assuage their bent egos.
So, please don't attempt to tell me how stupid or lost I am for not jumping on YOUR bandwagon to reject the divine Messiah YHWH sent, who martyred himself on my behalf! I know what I'm doing by teaching YHWH/Yeshua/Torah, and until GOD HIMSELF tells me otherwise, I'm going to continue doing it!