Remember “who you were” and how you behaved back in “those” days, and how you wish you could go back an change it all?
Well, I feel the same way - ashamed of the things I did when I was “in the world” and "carnal", completely Torah-less, even though I thought I was a moral person.
The thing is, we can’t sit around beating ourselves up over who we “used to be,” because we didn't know any better! We thought we were simply "being real". We were simply behaving like every one else.
But NOW we know better, for YHWH chose to set us apart. Halleluyah! So, stop fretting about things you can’t change, and change what you can NOW.
Remember Lot's wife in Genesis 19, who "looked back" at her “old home and life” and was, consequently, turned into a pillar of salt?
Certainly, don’t forget “who” you once were, but don’t “look back!” Pity that poor, unsaved person who was once you, and let go by simply "looking ahead" and living the life ADONAI meant for you to live!
Here’s one example:
Luke 9: 57. And while they were going on the road, a man said to him, "I will come after you to the place that you go my Master. 58. Y'shua said to him, Foxes have holes and birds of heaven a home, but the Son of man has no where to lay his head. 59. And he said to another, Come after me. And he said to him, "My Master allow me first to go and bury my father.
60. Y'shua said to him, Leave the dead to bury their dead, and you go and declare the Kingdom of Elohim. 61. Another said to him, "I will come after you my Master but first allow me to go and reassure my household and I will come.
62. Y'shua said to him, No man places his hand upon the handle of a plough and looks backwards and is useful to the Kingdom of Elohim. (AENT)
NOTE: "Let the dead bury their dead" basically means to let the spiritually dead take care of burying the physically dead. But right now, in this point and time I need you to "go and proclaim the Kingdom of Elohim."
By making such a statement, Yeshua wasn;t being mean; he was trying to help the young man realize the supreme importance of the Kingdom. Yeshua might even have known this young man to be a younger son, and if his father is dead other family members will assume the burial duties.
Worry not about the past that cannot be changed, and simply concentrate on your future with YHWH/Yeshua/Torah!