Thoughts on some comments in the Last Will and Testament of the Late Pope Francis

MY THOUGHTS ON SOME COMMENTS IN THE LAST WILL AND TESTAMENT OF THE LATE POPE FRANCIS:

Like all the Catholic Popes before him, Francis made reference to how he had “entrusted his life” to Mary.  Here’s a tiny snippet from the will, as released by the Vatican:

"I have always entrusted my life and my priestly and episcopal ministry to the Mother of Our Lord, Mary Most Holy” … "Therefore, I ask that my mortal remains rest awaiting the day of resurrection in the Papal Basilica of Santa Maria Maggiore" (referring to Yeshua’s Mother).

Pope John Paul II did basically the same thing before his death in 2005.  He addressed his written motto in Latin to the Virgin Mary, which translated means, "I am totally in your hands."

MY QUESTION IS: Where in the Bible are we EVER told to pray to, or entrust ourselves to the mere mortal Mary, the young woman chosen to give birth to our Messiah?

While it was certainly a great honor for Mary to be chosen as God’s vessel to bear YHWH’s Messiah –  there is not one single passage in the entire Bible that suggests Mary (whose Hebrew name is Miriam) was an intercessor between God and man, or that she was to be worshiped, prayed to!

Realizing that the Catholic Bible is a bit different from all the rest the umpteen-thousand other “versions” out there, the fact remains, the BASICS are still there – and those basics are as follows:

• ADONAI ELOHIM (הוה- YAHWEH/”God the Father” - who does NOT have a “Mother”) created mankind and the entire universe - and He gave us certain instructions that enable us to live holy, set apart lives for Him. (We read those facts throughout the first five Books of the Bible, called “Torah” - Divine Instructions in Righteousness).

• He supernaturally caused Yeshua, His Divine Son/Messiah to become formed inside of, and to be born via human virgin. Yeshua’s mission on earth was to proclaim the Kingdom of YHWH, to expound upon, and to reiterate His Father's Divine Instructions; and to do everything His Father commanded (see Luke 4:43, Luke 8:1; also Acts 24:14 and Acts 28:23).

• ADONAI constantly reiterated that HE was God, and there was none other – so what is the deal with all the “Mary worship” and all the statues and idols held sacred in the Catholic Church?

Isaiah 45:21 Let them stand and present their case! Indeed, let them take counsel together. Who foretold this long ago, announced it in times gone by? Wasn't it I, ADONAI? There is no other God besides me, a just God and a Savior; there is none besides me. 22 Look to me, and be saved, all the ends of the earth! For I am God; there is no other. 23 In the name of myself I have sworn, from my mouth has rightly gone out, a word that will not return - that to me every knee will bow and every tongue will swear 24 about me that only in ADONAI are justice and strength." All who rage against him will come to him ashamed, 25 but all the descendants of Isra'el will find justice and glory in ADONAI. (CJB)

Philippians 2:5 And think you so in yourselves, as Y'shua the Mashiyach (Messiah) also thought; 6. who, as he was in the likeness of Elohim, did not regard it sinful to be the coequal of Elohim; 7. yet disinherited himself and assumed the likeness of a servant, and was in the likeness of men and was found in fashion as a man; 8. and he humbled himself and became obedient to death, even the death of the stake. 9. Wherefore, also, Elohim has highly exalted him and given him a name which is more excellent than all names; 10. that at the name of Y'shua every knee should bow, of (beings) in heaven and on earth and under the earth; 11. and very tongue will avow MarYah - that is, Yeshua the Messiah - to the glory of יְהוָֹה His Father. (AENT)

FOOTNOTE: More than his literal birth name Yeshua (which was and is a common Hebrew name), and more than the perfect reputation that his name represents. Yeshua bears the Name of YHWH, the "name above all names!" Yeshua has the Name and reputation of the Father YHWH in him (John 17:11) and the name means "YHWH is Salvation" (Matthew 1:21). (The angels, for instance, only have YHWH's title of ELOHIM within their names: GabriEL, MichaEL, RaphaEL....)

Now - please understand, my goal is NOT to “bash” the Pope Francis, who was truly a good man doing what he believed was “right” in God’s eyes.  My goal is not to “bash” anyone who adheres to Catholicism, as we all need to work out our salvation with fear and trembling (Philippians 2: 12-16).  But, by the same token, we CANNOT and SHOULD NOT twist Scripture to suit our own purpose!

Mary not only fails to qualify as our Mediator, Advocate, Helper, Benefactress, and Mediatrix because she is a mere mortal; but also because she is DEAD – still in the ground until the next resurrection which will happen upon Yeshua’s return! (So are Pope John Paul II and all other “saints” that Catholics pray to...)

Nowhere in the Bible does it say Mary went straight to heaven. Not once are we told that she has been resurrected or "sits at the right hand of God" (as in the case of Yeshua - Colossians 3:1). She was still alive when Yeshua died on the stake (John 19:26-27); and we know of no other "rapture" since the day Yeshua died when there was a great earthquake and some dead believers were "resurrected" (Matthew 27:50-53).

Therefore, Mary is still waiting to “rise” upon Yeshua's Second Coming when all wholehearted Believers will be "caught up to meet Yeshua in the air" (1 Corinthians 6:14; 1 Thessalonians 4:13-17; what many refer to as “the rapture”). The FINAL "catching up" of ALL mankind (of both believers AND all the unbelievers since the beginning of time) will happen at the end of Yeshua's thousand-year reign when we will ALL stand before God on Judgment Day (Revelation 20:11-15).)

Proof that Mary was alive when Yeshua was crucified:

John 19: 26. And Y'shua saw his mother and a disciple whom he loved who was standing there, and he said to his mother, Woman, behold your son. 27. And he said to that disciple, Behold your mother. And at that hour that disciple took her with him. (AENT)

When he dies, this happens:

Matthew 27: 50. Then again Y'shua cried out with a loud voice and gave up his spirit. 51. And immediately, the curtains at the door of the temple were torn in two from the top to the bottom. And the earth was shaken and the rocks were split. 52. And the tombs were opened and many bodies of the Set Apart believers who were asleep arose, 53. And went out. (AENT)

Note that Mary wasn’t among them, because she was STILL ALIVE!  She didn’t rise, and therefore, she’s STILL in the grave – so, WHY would anyone pray to her?  What can she possibly DO for you, since she is still dead, and was not “divine.”

Yeshua Himself taught, "This, then, is how you should pray: 'Our Father in heaven....'" (Matthew 6:9). Yeshua intercedes on our behalf to the Father (Hebrews 7:25). The Bible teaches that we have access to the Father ONLY THROUGH YESHUA (Ephesians 2:18). Therefore, we should be praying to the Father, in Yeshua's Name (John 14:13-14).

Despite all those Biblical facts, Catholics around the world fervently pray to Mary, believing that she is the mediator who intercedes on their behalf before the Father – as is mentioned in the Catechism of the Catholic Church, Pg. 252, #969 – which says:  "Therefore the Blessed Virgin is invoked in the Church under the titles of Advocate, Helper, Benefactress, and Mediatrix." 

That is an absolute FALSEHOOD, and here’s why!

1 John 2: 1. My children, these things I write to you that you do not sin. But if any one should sin, we have an Advocate with the Father, Y'shua the Mashiyach, the righteous. 2. For he is himself the propitiation for our sins; and not for ours only but also for all the world. 3. And by this we will be sensible that we know him, if we keep his Commandments. 4. For he that says I know him, and does not keep his Commandments, is a liar and the truth is not in him.

5. But he that keeps his Word, in him is the Love of Elohim truly completed: for by this we know that we are in him. 6. He that says I am in him, is bound to walk according to his halacha. 7. My beloved, I write no new commandment to you, but the old Commandment which you had from the beginning; and the old Commandment is the Word which you have heard. (AENT)

Psalm 34: 19 The righteous person suffers many evils, but ADONAI rescues him out of them all.  (CJB)

Psalm 54: 4 But YHWH is helping me; Adonai is my support.  (CJB)

Hebrews 13: 6. And it belongs to us to say confidently, My Master (Y'shua) is my helper, I will not fear. What can man do to me? 7. Remember your guides who have spoken to you Elohim-inspired concepts; observe the perfection of their works and imitate their faith. 8. Y'shua the Mashiyach is the same yesterday, today, and forever. 9. Be not led away by strange and variable doctrines. For it is a good thing that we strengthen our hearts with grace and not with meats, for those have not benefited who walked in them. (AENT)

Never in the Word of God is Mary mentioned as being a supernatural helper nor anything besides the woman who was chosen to give birth to our Messiah! We are told that only Yeshua is our one and only mediator:

1 Timothy 2: 5. For Elohim is one, and the mediator between Elohim and men is one; (namely) the man Y'shua the Mashiyach, 6. who gave himself a ransom for every man; a testimony that arrived in due time... (AENT)

Hebrews 9: 15. And for this reason he became the Mediator of the renewed covenant, that he might by his death be redemption to them who had transgressed the first covenant; so that they who are called to the eternal inheritance might receive the promise. 16. For where there is a testament, it indicates the death of him who made it. 17. For it is valid only of a deceased (person) because it has no use so long as the maker of it lives. 18. Therefore also the first (covenant) was not confirmed without blood. 19. For when the whole ordinance had been propounded by Moshe to all the people, according to Torah; Moshe took the blood of a heifer and water, with scarlet wool and hyssop, and sprinkled upon the books and upon all the people; 20. and said to them, This is the blood of the covenant which is enjoined by Elohim. 21. With that blood he also sprinkled upon the tabernacle and upon all the vessels of ministration: 22. because everything, according to Torah, is purified with blood: and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness of sin.

23 For it was necessary that these, the representations of heavenly things, should be purified with those things; but the heavenly things themselves, with a sacrifice superior to them. 24. For the Mashiyach entered not into the sanctuary made with hands which is the emblem of the true (sanctuary): but he entered into heaven itself to appear in the presence of Elohim for us. 25. Neither (was it necessary) that he should offer himself many times as the high priest entered every year into the sanctuary with blood not his own: 26. otherwise, he must have suffered many times since the commencement of the world; but now in the end of the world, he has once offered himself in a self-sacrifice to abolish sin. 27. And, as it is appointed to men that they must once die, and after their death is the judgment; 28. so also the Mashiyach was once offered; and, by himself, he burned away the sins of many: and a second time, without sins, will he appear for the life of them who expect him. (AENT)

Could it be any clearer who is to get ALL the credit?  To teach otherwise, is to go against the entire Word of God!

Hebrews 8: 6. But now, Y'shua the Mashiyach has received a ministry which is better than that: as also the covenant of which he is made the Mediator is better, and is given with better promises than the former. (AENT)

John 14: 6. Y'shua said to him, I am the Way and the Truth and the Life. No man comes to the Father except by me. 7. If only you would have known me, you would have also have known my Father. And from now on you know Him and you have seen Him. (AENT)

Acts 4: 8. Then Shimon Keefa was filled with the Ruach haKodesh and he said to them, "Leaders of the people and elders of the house of Israel, listen. 9. If we are judged today by you concerning the good thing that happened to the sick man, (that) by what means this (man) was healed, 10. let this be known to you and to all the people of Israel, that by the name of Y'shua the Mashiyach, the Nazarene, he whom (you), executed on the stake, he whom Elohim raised from the dead, by him, by the same one, behold this (man) stands before you being whole! 11. This is the stone that you builders have rejected, and has become the head of the corner. 12. And there is not salvation by another man for there is not another name under heaven which is given to men by which it is proper to have life!" (AENT)

Wise people take occasional inventory of themselves - a “Holy Spirit” check, if you will - concerning our belief system, to MAKE SURE our beliefs line up with Scripture. No matter what our preferred Bible “version,” the truth is, we are all reading the same BASICS in the BIBLE – which are perfectly outlined for us, like a taut bow string, beginning in Genesis, and ending on the last page Revelation.  (If you have never read the Bible from cover to cover, I would strongly urge you to make a pact with yourself to do so, at your earliest opportunity.)  

May our Awesome ELOHIM bless you as you continue to learn and grow in Him!

"Time" did not exist in the Garden of Eden - nor will it exist in Eternity, when our "Sabbath Rest" resumes...

HERE IS SOMETHING IN THE BIBLE MOST OF US HAVE NEVER REALIZED BEFORE: "Time" did not exist in the Garden of Eden!  We never see the words “and there was evening, and there was morning, a SEVENTH Day”...

Genesis 1 ends with this verse:

Genesis 1:31 God saw everything that he had made, and indeed it was very good. So there was evening, and there was morning, a SIXTH Day. (CJB)

Genesis 2 then starts out with this passage that tells us there WAS a “seventh day” – and that it was special – blessed, separated and set apart as HOLY:

Genesis 2: 1 Thus the heavens and the earth were finished, along with everything in them. ² On the seventh day God was finished with his work which he had made, so he rested on the seventh day from all his work which he had made. ³ God blessed the seventh day and separated it as holy; because on that day God rested from all his work which he had created, so that it itself could produce. (CJB)

From the above, we glean the following:

“Time” – in the Garden of Eden – was irrelevant!  Adam and Eve were never aware of the concept of “time.”  They were never told to “rest on the Seventh Day,” as they were already in Paradise - the place YHWH had prepared for them; a place where they didn’t have to “work for a living,” or be told to stop working and REST on a certain day.  They simply lived their daily lives in peace and tranquility, basking in true “shalom” in every sense of the word!  

In other words, never having been confined to “time,” their days weren't dictated by a clock.  They weren’t waiting for their “time on earth” to end, and they would never taste “death” as they were ALREADY “resting” in God’s Presence! 

The concept of “time” was introduced to them (and, consequently, to you and me) from the moment they perpetrated the original sin! 

So, the reality is that SHABBAT was always meant to be ETERNAL!  Mankind was always intended to live in rest and peace from the very beginning, and throughout Eternity!  Thanks to the “original sin,” however, the rest of humanity is forced to live in a world run by “time" ... and that time includes the command to work for seven days, and REST on the Seventh…

This will continue until Judgment Day, when “time” will become irrelevant once again, as some of us will enter our Eternal Rest with YHWH and Yeshua …while “time” for the unbelievers will simply be no more.

The lesson to be learned from the above is that we MUST take God's commanded Seventh Day Sabbath rest VERY seriously!  The Seventh Day Sabbath is HOLY/Set Apart, and it is NOT an option for those who claim to belong to the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob!  He even told us when and how to keep it:

Exodus 31:16 The people of Isra'el are to keep the Shabbat, to observe Shabbat through all their generations as a perpetual covenant. 17 It is a sign between me and the people of Isra'el forever; for in six days ADONAI made heaven and earth, but on the seventh day he stopped working and rested.'" (CJB)

Ezekiel 20:11 I gave them my laws and showed them my rulings; if a person obeys them, he will have life through them. 12 I gave them my shabbats as a sign between me and them, so that they would know that I, ADONAI, am the one who makes them holy. (CJB)

Isaiah 58: 13 If you hold back your foot on Shabbat from pursuing your own interests on my holy day; if you call Shabbat a delight, ADONAI'S holy day, worth honoring; then honor it by not doing your usual things or pursuing your interests or speaking about them. 14 If you do, you will find delight in ADONAI - I will make you ride on the heights of the land and feed you with the heritage of your ancestor Ya'akov, for the mouth of ADONAI has spoken." (CJB)

Jeremiah 17: 21 Here is what ADONAI says: "If you value your lives, don't carry anything on Shabbat or bring it in through the gates of Yerushalayim; 22 don't carry anything out of your houses on Shabbat; and don't do any work. Instead, make Shabbat a holy day. I ordered your ancestors to do this, 23 but they neither listened nor paid attention; rather, they stiffened their necks, so that they wouldn't have to hear or receive instruction. 24 However, if you will pay careful heed to me," says ADONAI "and carry nothing through the gates of this city on Shabbat, but instead make Shabbat a day which is holy and not for doing work; (CJB) 

I am closing this article with some relevant Bible passages about who will get to spend the "time" of "forever" in Eternity -  and who will simply be gone, never to have to worry about "time" ever again:

1 Thessalonians 4: 13. And I wish you to know, my Brothers, that you should not mourn over them who have fallen asleep, like other people who have no hope. 14 For if we believe that Y’shua died and rose again, even so them who sleep, will Elohim, by Y’shua, bring with him. 15. And this we say to you by the word of our Master (Y’shua), that we who may survive and be alive at the coming of our Master (Y’shua), will not precede them who have slept. 16. Because our Master (Y’shua) will himself descend from heaven with the mandate and with the voice of the chief Messenger and with the Qarna of Elohim; and the dead who are in the Mashiyach will first arise; 17. and then we who survive and are alive will be caught up together with them to the clouds to meet our Master (Y’shua) in the air; and so will we be ever with our Master. 18. And so, comfort you one another with these words. (AENT)

1 Corinthians 15: tells us that it will be "in the twinkling of an eye," and Matthew 24:40 reveals that this "translation" from physical to spiritual bodies will be sudden:

1 Corinthians 15: 50 Let me say this, brothers: flesh and blood cannot share in the Kingdom of God, nor can something that decays share in what does not decay. 51 Look, I will tell you a secret — not all of us will die! But we will all be changed! 52 It will take but a moment, the blink of an eye, at the final shofar. For the shofar will sound, and the dead will be raised to live forever, and we too will be changed. 53 For this material which can decay must be clothed with imperishability, this which is mortal must be clothed with immortality. 

54 When what decays puts on imperishability and what is mortal puts on immortality, then this passage in the Tanakh will be fulfilled: “Death is swallowed up in victory.  55  “Death, where is your victory?  Death, where is your sting?”  56 The sting of death is sin; and sin draws its power from the Torah; 57 but thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Yeshua the Messiah! (CJB)

Matthew 24: 40. Then two men will be in the field, one will be taken and one will be left. 41. And two women will be grinding at the mill. One will be taken and one will be left. 42. Therefore be alert, because you do not know in what hour your Master will come. (AENT)

In John 5 we learn that everyone will be "translated" - some to eternal life and some to judgment:

John 5: 28. Do not marvel at this for the hour is coming when all those who are in the grave will hear his voice! 29. And those who have done good things will go forth to the resurrection of life, and those who have done evil things to the resurrection of judgment. (AENT)

Those who know Scripture realize that the above lists two events that are actually separated by a thousand years. The "resurrection of life" is the first resurrection, which happens just prior to Yeshua's Second Coming; and the "resurrection of judgment" does not occur until a thousand years later at the end of Messiah's millennial reign, when everyone who has ever lived will stand before YHWH on Judgment Day. These things are outlined in the following:

Daniel 12: 1 "When that time comes, Mikha'el, the great prince who champions your people, will stand up; and there will be a time of distress unparalleled between the time they became a nation and that moment. At that time, your people will be delivered, everyone whose name is found written in the book. 2 Many of those sleeping in the dust of the earth will awaken, some to everlasting life and some to everlasting shame and abhorrence. 3 But those who can discern will shine like the brightness of heaven's dome, and those who turn many to righteousness like the stars forever and ever. (AENT)

Acts 24: 15. And I have a hope in Elohim, which they also themselves expect, that there is to be a resurrection of the dead, both of the righteous and the wicked. (AENT)

Revelation 20: 11. And I saw a great white throne and Him who sits upon it; from whose presence the earth and heaven fled away, and this their place was not found. 12. And I saw the dead, great and small, standing before the throne; and the books were opened; and another book was opened, which is (the book) of life. And the dead were judged from the things written in the books, according to their deeds. 13. And the sea gave up the dead in it; and death and Sheol gave up the dead in them. And they were judged, each one according to his deeds. 14. And death and Sheol were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death (namely,) this lake of fire. 15. And if any one was not found enrolled in the book of life, he was cast into this lake of fire. (AENT)

Have you ever felt alone and forgotten?

HAVE YOU EVER FELT ALONE AND FORGOTTEN?  I sure have – many times, over the course of my life!  Not only have I often “felt alone and forgotten,” but also “alone and different.”

The reason I am writing this is because this morning, my husband Tom and I (during our daily reading) landed on Psalm 88, which brought back some powerful memories for me – especially the following verses:

PSALM 88:  ⁽⁸⁾ You separated me from my close friends, made me repulsive to them; I am caged in, with no escape; ^10 (9) my eyes grow dim from suffering. I call on you, Adonai, every day; I spread out my hands to you.  ^11 (10) Will you perform wonders for the dead? Can the ghosts of the dead rise up and praise you? (Selah)

 ^12 (11) Will your grace be declared in the grave, or your faithfulness in Abaddon? (Hebrew idiom meaning "destruction", "doom.") ^13 (12) Will your wonders be known in the dark, or your righteousness in the land of oblivion? ^14 (13) But I cry out to you, Adonai; my prayer comes before you in the morning. ^15 (14) So why, Adonai, do you reject me? Why do you hide your face from me? (CJB)

These passages hit me so hard because I’ve done a lot of suffering over the course of my life; and – even though God HAD performed some amazing miracles for me – I often wondered where He was during my times of distress, because it sometimes seemed like He was busy ignoring, and even outright rejecting me!

Basically, for me, feeling “alone and forgotten and/or different,” had been a way of life …UNTIL – to my great surprise - in January of 1995 at age 44, He saw fit to open my “spiritual eyes” to Him, His Messiah, and His Word. 

On that wondrous day, I “happened” to be sitting in the pews of a little Baptist Church in Seymour, Missouri, on my first date with a man named Ellis, whom I’d met at an “Oldies Dance” some months before. Ellis had asked me out a few times before but, until that cold day in January, I had refused because – well, to put it bluntly – he was a “Bible Thumper,” constantly talking about Jesus, even while we were dancing!   

(Up until then, I really wasn’t into “that kind” of Christian, because I had always been under the impression that Christians were all hypocrites, sinning during the week, and then warming the pews on Sundays…)

Anyway, the ONLY reason I had finally decided to go on a date with him was because on that particular New Year’s Eve of 1994/1995, I had been lying in bed after yet another disastrous date – and with hands folded in prayer, I heard myself say, “Dear God, I’m so TIRED of my life!  Please – if you’re as sick and tired of my life and lifestyle as I am, could you PLEASE give me a GOOD man for a change?”

Throughout my life, I had always chosen the “rugged/tough/macho” type guys, and so I thought that turning to God and asking for a “good” man MIGHT solve all my problems.  (Okay  -  just so you know  -  God DID answer my prayer the very next day; but imagine my surprise to ultimately discover that that “man” would end up being JESUS!)  

Here's what happened:

This "weird" new phase of my life began the next morning on January 1, when I received a phone call from the “Bible thumper” calling to ask me out again!  His words were something to the effect of, “I don’t really know why I’m calling you, Carmen, but I feel like God wants me to give you another chance to go out with me.”

Well, my first inclination, of course, was to tell him “No!” again – but then I remembered my one-way conversation with God the night before … and the bottom line was, I reluctantly accepted Ellis’ invitation to join him in his church on the following Sunday.

 …And  so I found myself on a date with a CHRISTIAN – sitting in a church of all places – listening to a pastor who “just happened” to say “all the right things” that I had obviously needed to hear…

At some point, all of a sudden, BAM! I felt as as though I had been hit by a lightening bolt – only it didn’t hurt.   All I knew was that “something” had "touched me all over, right down to the core of my very being.  

I suddenly felt as though my eyes had been opened to something amazing – something I couldn’t explain, but my mind "knew things" and I "just knew" there was a lot more, and that my life would never be the same again!  Over the course of my life, God had given me MANY miracles, and so I had always KNOWN He was real … but that morning absolutely blew my mind, and I’ve never been the same.  (THANK YOU, Father!)

Anyway, the next thing I knew, I was busy reading the Bible from cover to cover, attending every Bible study I could find, and doing every workbook I could get my hands on. Over the coming months, everything began to “click” and fall into place … and it dawned on me that THIS is where I was meant to be at that time, because God clearly had me on a journey to discover “who” I was ultimately meant to be!

Approximately a year into my new walk, I started “hearing” Him tell me to move to Colorado Springs – but, having nightmarish childhood memories of that place, I fought Him like crazy for six months until one day my eyes “happened” upon the passages in Deuteronomy 1:6 and 2:3, which felt like they were written just for me; and I “felt” as if God was telling me, “Carmen, you’ve been at this mountain long enough!”

And so, I put my house on the market and sold everything I owned (except, of course, for my car), and moved to Colorado Springs … something which changed my entire life and led me right to where HE had ALWAYS wanted me, walking in Torah, and showing others the Way!

Backing up to Psalm 88, which I mentioned at the beginning of this article, the words struck me so hard because I HAD lost friends over my newly-found faith. After I became a Christian, some began to distance themselves from me, refusing to tell me why, while others had the guts to let me know that it was because I had “changed.”  They said things like, “Carmen, you’re not the same person.  You’re not as much fun as you used to be, and you talk differently.  You're just ... different!”

Although it had hurt at the time, I had to admit, it was true.  I had started the habit of going to church on Sunday, I no longer found any pleasure in hanging out in bars anymore, and my way of speaking changed because I was no longer “in the world.” 

For me, “having a good time” meant hanging out with my new, like-minded church friends and doing Bible studies. I had stopped looking for “husband material” in every man I met; and ALL that really mattered to me was that “I belonged to Jesus.”  In other words, I had become … well … a Bible Thumper!

And I'm here to tell you -  this situation was magnified exponentially when Yahweh opened my spiritual eyes to the idea of YHWH/Yeshua/Torah!  People began to scatter (and they still do) in every direction whenever I mentioned that I was “Messianic”; as they were under the erroneous belief that I had “gone back under the law”… Unfortunately, this still holds true today, nearly 30 years later, because most people simply CANNOT comprehend what it means to be Torah observant.

I’ve gotten used to it, though.  And while I still feel “different,” I no longer feel “alone” or “forgotten” because I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that The Holy One of Israel is WITH me – no matter what “the world” thinks.  His Plan for me all along was to “sow seeds” for His Truth wherever and however I can – and I’m good with that!