Fearing the worst, I made David promise he wouldn’t confront my father because there was no doubt in my mind that “Dad” would have killed ME! My adoptive father was evil personified. He was a psycho with a violent temper who had absolutely no reservation about physically hurting humans or animals. Anyway, David relented, but he wasn’t happy about how much my father’s actions had hurt me, and he promised to one day take me far away from it all. David KNEW how badly I had been damaged by the sexual abuse. (Remember that as you read the rest of this testimony….)
But life happened and David joined the Air Force and fell in love with a Korean woman while stationed overseas, and I never saw him again. That was the beginning of my determination to take matters into my own hands and forge my own destiny. All the men I had ever known up until then had turned out to be raving disappointments, and so “I” got me “away from it all” by joining the Army and starting my own career while attending night classes at local colleges….
Anyway, my heart ached for David for many years. All my prayers for reconciliation and attempts to find him failed. I was hoping that he and his Korean wife didn’t work out and he was trying to find me so he could apologize and tell me what a huge mistake he had made, and then we could ride off into the sunset together. But that never happened. God didn’t answer my prayers, and I often wondered if there really was “a God”…. If there was, He would surely would have returned David to me, because He KNEW David was the love of my life!
To make that proverbial long story short, David ultimately became a long-forgotten memory – and so I’ll just get to the bottom line: The reason YHWH wouldn’t allow me to marry David was because, like my adoptive father, David ended up being a pedophile! His sister told me he was serving a 20 year prison sentence for having gotten his 12 year old daughter pregnant. Yes, “the love of my life” whom I almost married, was a PEDOPHILE! I couldn’t believe my ears….After retrieving my jaw from the floor, I fell to my knees in prayer, grateful beyond belief for YHWH’s grace and mercy in keeping me away from David, because that little 12 year old girl he impregnated could have been MY daughter!
Had it been my own daughter, though, I know that the outcome for David would have been much different – because he would never have gone to prison, for I would have killed him. So, YHWH had saved me from disaster in more ways than one!
And that is how I discovered that unanswered prayers can be a REAL blessing….
James 4: 3. You ask, and do not receive because you ask wickedly, that you may feed your lusts. 4. You adulterers, don’t you know that the love of the world is hatred towards Elohim? He therefore who chooses to be a lover of this world is the enemy of Elohim. 5. Or do you think that the Scripture has vainly said: The spirit dwelling in us lusts with envy? 6. But our Master (Y’shua) has given us more grace. Therefore he said: Master YHWH brings low the arrogant, and gives grace to the humble.
7. Subject yourselves therefore to Elohim; and stand firm against the Accuser and he will flee from you. 8. Draw near to Elohim and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners: sanctify your hearts, you who are divided in mind. 9. Humble yourselves and mourn: let your laughter be turned into mourning, and your joy into grief. 10. Humble yourselves before Master YHWH and He will exalt you. (AENT)